Nadif

I gathered the courage to take the phone wanted talking to a girl. I heard her voice there answered my phone, I wasn't strong enough as a kid who just entered junior high school to talk to her who was just moved to another town to make a story of her senior high school time.

she is my sister, the person I always look up to. she is not an ordinary sister, or woman. she is Nuf my proud sister.

I can't believe that this is happening, my best friend I knew since I was born. last night, gave a birth to a little pretty girl who is my niece. I can't be happier. Alhamdulillah. we have a new family member. my sister makes me proud of her once again,

Hallo kennysha Fatimah Nadeeva, I'm your angpo.

#4

my girlfriend worries about men who have time of puberty twice.

does it mean a man can't fall in love with the same woman in his second puberty?



I dreamed about I was being cheated, and betrayed in my sleep twice in a week
I was scared to death..
later, I had a dream that I was caused something bad to happen...
when I woke up, I felt happy because it was just a dream.
so the conclusion is that's all about dreams, nothing's more.

when I was on the way to my girlfriend's house, I saw a bunch of students going back home by walking, then they tried to stop a pick-up car.... and the driver stopped the car for them.
hmmm relief, I still have a faith in humanity to this country :)

Blink The Fact

I start reading.




I read more



More...



and more...



Then I stop.
I'm not strong enough to read more..






There are things I'm better not know in this world, so I won't get hurt or sad

'C'loser

I haven’t posted anything except my softskill assignments lately, I miss blogging so much. I have so many stories to tell, how interesting my life is now, how my life feels complete because of that person I love so much. But I’m not going to write about her now, because it takes a special time to write down all the stories and the photos. I think it’s gonna be after this post.

I just watched a film called ‘Planes’, it’s a cartoon from above the world of Cars. So it’s all about the planes talking, and how a plane falls in love with another plane haha. But the point is, I like the story so much. It inspires me a lot.  There’s a plane called Dusty Crophopper living in the field area, he is just a crop duster, he never flown above 1000ft. his dream is to be able to participate in the wings around the globe rally, but it means all the planes should fly in above 1000 ft, which he doesn’t have a chance to do it. After all he is made to crop not to race. A crop dusting wanting to be a racer.

But Dusty never gives up, he always practices after his long day of crop dusting, helped with his friend Chug and dottie the mechanic.  Then dusty goes to qualifying round to try his luck, and he made it sixth. He couldn’t go to the next round, because it just needed the top five. Dusty went home and feeling sad. But there’s a news that there’s a participate who cheated, so Dusty is in to the race.

Dusty who never flown far away should go himself to New York, he started the race there with Ripslinger ‘the tornado’ the captain of team RPX, the fastest, modest, plane ever made and the other planes who are made to race.

Dusty made it to the last place in the beginning of the race, but he never given up, he was cold, he flew very low, where all the planes flew high. He kept going, he kept going.  Until there was a plane who had an accident, and dusty helped him to finish the race. Everyone salute to Dusty and started looking him. He has many friends, he is nice to everyone, and everyone likes him.

With all of his efforts, Then Dusty made it to the first place, and Ripslinger didn’t like it, he asked his crew to make Dusty fell. So Dusty lost from the race, he broke his wings, his machine, he couldn’t go forward to the last round.  He had no word to say, he had no chance to be back to the race. He lost hope. Suddenly, everyone who is ever helped by dusty shows up, they give dusty everything he needs. Wings, machine, propeller, etc. he is a new plane now.

Dusty went back to the race, and he won it.

From the story I learn, it doesn’t matter if you were born as nobody. You can make it to be what you want to be, you can get what you want. You just need to keep going, and never give up to the situation. Even you’re bullied, cheated by someone else. You just need to keep being nice to everyone, they will help you although you don’t ask for it. You never stop, you’ll get it in the end.

This is what a best friend of mine writes about me.

"I know it’s weird enough when I do not pay a lot of attention with someone for many years. But someday I read his tweet and his blog. Then it feels like, damn! I miss a friend like you.

I have an old friend. We were close enough but I do not know since when we stop to talk and meet each other. And I don’t know why. Wait, I think it’s because we are getting busy every day. Not because we had a fight. Yes, we never have a fight.

Actually, I used to adore him for long time. I adore him since we first met. He’s my very good friend and even we don’t talk each other I still feel the same.

I love the way he think. He’s look so different with other men I know. He is smart and polite. I love the way he treat other people. He respect people and never judge person by their appearance. He always see a good side from every people he met.  I think he transformed from boy to a men since very long time ago.

And he always a good friend for me. I ask him for advice sometimes and he always tell that I can do my best and always do my best. He makes me more respect with myself and he always can see a good thing from me even when  I feel like I was a rubbish.

I know for sure that someday he will be a big big big person. And I so proud to be his friend. Even I don’t talk to him often anymore.

This post is just a respect for me to him. I wrote this cause I remember him suddenly and realize I don’t meet him for a long long time.  May God always by your side. Just keep humble."

In my defense, wherever/whoever you put your heart is, Allah cares about it. Allah cares about your faith, because Allah cares about you. So if you put your heart/live your faith out on someone, Allah will care about your relationship with that person, because it comes from the heart.
I always mention the name of someone I care about in my pray, I believe that what I feel here can be felt by the person, because I say it from my heart, I know she can feel it.

"What comes from the heart goes to the heart." - Samuel Taylor Coleridge.

I wanna share this thought too, as we know Allah loves you more than anyone/anything in this world. So Allah won't let you get hurt, if a bad thing happens to you, believe it is actually the best from Allah for you at that moment. Because Allah loves you.
Stay positive, do better and pray hard.

The only thing I know is I feel safe when I talk to you
I feel complete when you're around
You still appear in my dream everynight
Even when I get up, You're the first person I think about
I dont know what all of this is about, but have you realized that we are closer than before?

 " So, here's the thing, God......

I know I complain a lot, and I know that you and me,

we've got issues, but right now, just for tonight...

Thank you for her. Thank you."

I miss being easy going, I'm really not me lately. But if you really know me, you must realize there's something bothering me, and I pray a lot so I can spend my days and do what I can do for amazing people like you all.

                            

ツ

it's funny when you don't give your attention to a person anymore, but when read her blog you still feel the same like you used to feel around a year ago. You know that feeling when you feel you know a person well through her writing, it's not you act as if you knew everything about her, but you know what kind of person she is. you know I usually judge a person not from their appearance, but from the way they treat animal. if you're eating with your friend, or walking and you guys meet a cat, I know that friend is a nice person when s/he treats that cat nicely, but if that friend kicks that cat, or doesn't care I know s/he will treat a person in the same way. 

so I don't know this person yet in the real life, I still remember I found her when I was searching something on twitter. I started following her since then, she's really different, in a positive way though. she has a blog, so I've learned so many good things from what she posted on blog, or her tweets. She loves cat of course! everytime I listen to a song that says 'what you wear and what you read, you're not the same with other girls I know' yes it refers to her.

I just adore her, the way she always gives everything to Allah, the way she handles everything well like see a doctor if you feel sick and have anything to ask, or don't know what to do about it. her point of view. she loves her family so much, she reads a lot, she's not that rich daughter who spends her parents' money on useless things, I know she always tries to buy good things with her own. I know she will be a good mother someday because I know her mom teaches her manners and everything well. she has good taste in music, she often tweets her favorite songs, and when I listen to them usually I like those too. 

everytime I read her blog, you know it feels like you're wandering a colourful life full of life lessons within simple things. this post is just a respect from me to her for giving me that spirit to reach anything with all of my heart through her blog in my darkness time. I can see everything now.

eyy  btw who are we talking about? she must doesn't feel good if she's eating haha.

she used to be my obsession. but still one of my favorite people.

I know it will be fine if someday soon I know her in the real life, cz she can be a great friend, a great listener, a great story teller, a great adviser, and nobody knows what happens next. yayers ツ

my dad has worked hard to keep things go well, he teaches me to be a good person in this world. I don't know why there are still people think he doesn't deserve this all. Ya Allah keep my dad healthy, make him live in peace in his old days. I wanna make him and my mom just sit enjoying the world and have much time to get closer to you. I know I'll be a great father cz I've raised by one. ya Allah I love my parents please give me a chance to make them proud of me, give me strength to pay all of their hard work, they have always been treating me so well with all of their hearts, now it's time for me to do the same things for them.

I just bought a record of my favorite band, and I'm listening to it while reading the lyrics in my room now. would you like to listen to it with me in my car while we're heading somewhere? I'll take anywhere you wanna go, cz I know it will be completely fun. :)))

you're a person who makes me get up immediately to do a pray, you're a person who makes me leave the coffee I've made in the middle of a night just on the table and drink it in the morning, you're a person who makes me feel bad if I don't understand something in a subject and when I get home I study hard to understand it. Simply say you're a person who makes me better.

The Academy Is - About A Girl

Hallo, About A Girl from The Academy Is is one of my favorite songs of all time, I can even listen to it like a million times a day. ok I'm too much, at least 10 times a day. 

I don't know why I like this song a lot, but I'm gonna tell you what the meaning of this song is, through people's thoughts.

Lyrics:

One song about a girl
I can't breathe when I'm around her
I'll wait here everyday
In case you scratch the surface
She'll never notice

[Chorus]
I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

Last night I knew what to say
But you weren't there to hear it
These lines: so well rehearsed
Tongue-tied and overloaded
You never noticed

[Chorus]

I'm not in love
This is not your song
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

To be loved, to be loved
What more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone wants to be loved
To be loved
What more could you ask for
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone...

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words

[Chorus]

I'm not in love
(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)
This is not your song
(To be loved, to be loved, everyone wants)
I'm not gonna waste these words
(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)
About a girl

source:songmeanings

"I think its about a boy who loves a girl; though he's trying to prove himself wrong.
oooorr.. the opposite. haha." - mits.

"so i think its about when you fall in love with a friend or a person close to you. they dont seem to notice or be into you so you get that felling of dread about making a move so you ignore it and deney it and hope it kind of goes away. " - flarixs

"This song's about a guy liking a girl. But he won't fall in LOVE with her because if he would, he'd be heartbroken in the end."- LubyLou7

"a guy loves this girl, a lot, but is afraid to tell her cuz they are good friends and is afraid of what the consequences of actually telling her would be, so to get over it he tries to convince himself hes not in love, she has no idea so she really has no part in this song...if you know what i mean"-dub2

"I think it's about a guy who is trying to convince himself that he doesn't love a girl, although really he does. The girl is unattainable, whether she is with someone else or is in love with someone else, either way the feelings aren't mutual. Therefore the guy is trying to stop feeling this way because he doesn't want to waste his time with a girl he can't have.
Or at least that's how I understood it as being. Being in that situation currently, it's nice to have a song that articulates this in my mind, without being depressing in any way." -sonofhacker

"i'm fair confident this song is about being in love but not wanting to admit it to yourself or anyone else for fear of getting hurt.. and knowing that the girl isn't all that interested in you, but still being quietly desperate for her and having no idea what to do about it."-keiwo

"I think he's in denial about liking a girl. Maybe he doesn't want to admit it to people (his friends?) but he wants her to know how he feels and at the same time he's denying he feels anything at all. idk if that's right but...yeah :) " - beckerz13

 As far as the chorus goes, he is denying his love for her because it's complicated. He knows but he doesn't know. Maybe it's new to him? I think it's the battle between 'in love' and 'not in love'.
Either way, good song. :B" -xAvondale

"I take it as just A Guy likes a girl, but hes pretending he doesnt because he doesnt want her to know. He cant get the courage to tell her, and he doesnt want to tell her because he's afraid."- cest-la-vie

 

"William said in an interview that this is a song about pretending not to be in love when you clearly are. As in, he's trying to deny his own heart because he can't be with this girl, for whatever reason, probably being too shy" - shapeofhome

"personally i just think its about a guy who is really really in love with a girl, but is just really afraid to admit it to himself. he's afraid she wont love him back, so he feels as though the only thing he can do to get rid of that fear is to convince himself that he actually doesn't love her..even though he really does." -x83

"There's a guy who loves this girl, and wants nothing more than to love someone that will love him back. But every time he feels like he's figured out what to say he loses confidence again, and in the end decides that he'd be wasting his time trying to win her, because he doesn't think she'll ever care about him the way he cares about her... so he tries to convince himself that he doesn't love her because he doesn't know what else to do. " - xLadYofSorrowZx

I've asked to a trustworthy person what to do about this, he said "I say you go and get her, Tiger!"

I realize that I have to struggle for what I've been dreaming of ever since I was a kid. I wanna see every corner of this world, even I wanna fly higher than ordinary people, to see the earth from above, to mingle with a billion of stars.

today is not even the beginning of April yet, but I've already spent lots of money on books.
but I'm glad to know it's well spent. I need those books for this semester projects.
Since I was high school when average boys spent their money to buy cigarette, I didn't. so I had enough money left to buy snacks after school, magz, books to read or dvd etc.

today in a bookstore, I was looking for a book. There was a kid approached his dad bringing a book, the kid said 'dad look at this!!' enthusiastically and his dad said 'wow what a nice story.. but mmmh poor him.. what do you think son?'.

yap it's cool to spend weekend in a bookstore with your wife and your kids, then watch a movie.

Since last night my internet connection has been running so slow, it can't even connect. meanwhile I have lots of assignments to be done, so I should have done all of them this afternoon but there was still no internet connection till isya. finally I decided to go outside to buy paper, cz I ran out of paper and the first purpose was to find free wifi. I didn't find free wifi so I went to internet-shop, it brings back me so many memories.
when I was in 10th grade I often went to this such of place on the weekend, I didn't have internet connection in my house so I had to go outside to browse or doing assignments. ah but it was so fun :)  people feel this semester so hard, but I decide to feel it easy.

back to me, I was browsing and there was a girl entering the shop to buy something and a soft drink, I thought she just stopped by from work or campus, she dressed well and nice to cashier. I didn't dare to see her face but she looked at me.

on the way back home city lights were so beautiful and I thought about
I wish I dared enough to say hi or just to ask her name, but it always happens when it comes to that such of situation. I know I have lots of chances to know some girls and ask a girl to date. but it never happened before. I don't know what's wrong with me, I only already have someone in my mind, I've even thought the sweetest thing I will do only for her.

cz Aragorn is always waiting for Arwen Evenstar till the end. cz Aragorn only has Arwen in his heart.

'Cause love has no distance baby,
Love, love has no distance baby,
No, not when it comes to you and me.' -Aj Rafael

Frodo: I can't do this, Sam.
Sam: I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.
Frodo: What are we holding onto, Sam?
Sam: That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for. - The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers.

Setting Sail

I've been told that I'm making a big mistake
I'm throwing my life away for nothing

I've been told I can't do everything I set out to do
I'm gonna do this just to prove it to you
You're just a hoop that I'm jumping through

I'm sick and tired of hearing all the ways that it could fail
I'm setting sail for something big
I know what that entails
I know it won't be easy but I'm a sucker for pursuit
Discouragements are nothing more
Than fuel to find the truth

about this world
and what I need to keep living in it
so I'm not gonna waste a minute

I've been told that I'll never make a name for myself
My life will culminate with dust on a shelf
and that I'm lost and that I need to find help


I'm sick and tired of hearing all the ways that it could fail
I'm setting sail for something big
I know what that entails
I know it won't be easy but I'm a sucker for pursuit
Discouragements are nothing more
Than fuel to find the truth

about this world
and what I need to keep living in it
so I'm not gonna waste a minute

Now I stand
painting pictures with the broad stroke of my hand
It's finally a prize within my grasp
and my ambition's going nowhere fast

*The Way Back - Setting Sail
from the 2012 release "Time Alone"
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