In my defense, wherever/whoever you put your heart is, Allah cares about it. Allah cares about your faith, because Allah cares about you. So if you put your heart/live your faith out on someone, Allah will care about your relationship with that person, because it comes from the heart.
I always mention the name of someone I care about in my pray, I believe that what I feel here can be felt by the person, because I say it from my heart, I know she can feel it.

"What comes from the heart goes to the heart." - Samuel Taylor Coleridge.

I wanna share this thought too, as we know Allah loves you more than anyone/anything in this world. So Allah won't let you get hurt, if a bad thing happens to you, believe it is actually the best from Allah for you at that moment. Because Allah loves you.
Stay positive, do better and pray hard.

The only thing I know is I feel safe when I talk to you
I feel complete when you're around
You still appear in my dream everynight
Even when I get up, You're the first person I think about
I dont know what all of this is about, but have you realized that we are closer than before?

 " So, here's the thing, God......

I know I complain a lot, and I know that you and me,

we've got issues, but right now, just for tonight...

Thank you for her. Thank you."

I miss being easy going, I'm really not me lately. But if you really know me, you must realize there's something bothering me, and I pray a lot so I can spend my days and do what I can do for amazing people like you all.

                            

ツ

it's funny when you don't give your attention to a person anymore, but when read her blog you still feel the same like you used to feel around a year ago. You know that feeling when you feel you know a person well through her writing, it's not you act as if you knew everything about her, but you know what kind of person she is. you know I usually judge a person not from their appearance, but from the way they treat animal. if you're eating with your friend, or walking and you guys meet a cat, I know that friend is a nice person when s/he treats that cat nicely, but if that friend kicks that cat, or doesn't care I know s/he will treat a person in the same way. 

so I don't know this person yet in the real life, I still remember I found her when I was searching something on twitter. I started following her since then, she's really different, in a positive way though. she has a blog, so I've learned so many good things from what she posted on blog, or her tweets. She loves cat of course! everytime I listen to a song that says 'what you wear and what you read, you're not the same with other girls I know' yes it refers to her.

I just adore her, the way she always gives everything to Allah, the way she handles everything well like see a doctor if you feel sick and have anything to ask, or don't know what to do about it. her point of view. she loves her family so much, she reads a lot, she's not that rich daughter who spends her parents' money on useless things, I know she always tries to buy good things with her own. I know she will be a good mother someday because I know her mom teaches her manners and everything well. she has good taste in music, she often tweets her favorite songs, and when I listen to them usually I like those too. 

everytime I read her blog, you know it feels like you're wandering a colourful life full of life lessons within simple things. this post is just a respect from me to her for giving me that spirit to reach anything with all of my heart through her blog in my darkness time. I can see everything now.

eyy  btw who are we talking about? she must doesn't feel good if she's eating haha.

she used to be my obsession. but still one of my favorite people.

I know it will be fine if someday soon I know her in the real life, cz she can be a great friend, a great listener, a great story teller, a great adviser, and nobody knows what happens next. yayers ツ

my dad has worked hard to keep things go well, he teaches me to be a good person in this world. I don't know why there are still people think he doesn't deserve this all. Ya Allah keep my dad healthy, make him live in peace in his old days. I wanna make him and my mom just sit enjoying the world and have much time to get closer to you. I know I'll be a great father cz I've raised by one. ya Allah I love my parents please give me a chance to make them proud of me, give me strength to pay all of their hard work, they have always been treating me so well with all of their hearts, now it's time for me to do the same things for them.

I just bought a record of my favorite band, and I'm listening to it while reading the lyrics in my room now. would you like to listen to it with me in my car while we're heading somewhere? I'll take anywhere you wanna go, cz I know it will be completely fun. :)))

you're a person who makes me get up immediately to do a pray, you're a person who makes me leave the coffee I've made in the middle of a night just on the table and drink it in the morning, you're a person who makes me feel bad if I don't understand something in a subject and when I get home I study hard to understand it. Simply say you're a person who makes me better.

The Academy Is - About A Girl

Hallo, About A Girl from The Academy Is is one of my favorite songs of all time, I can even listen to it like a million times a day. ok I'm too much, at least 10 times a day. 

I don't know why I like this song a lot, but I'm gonna tell you what the meaning of this song is, through people's thoughts.

Lyrics:

One song about a girl
I can't breathe when I'm around her
I'll wait here everyday
In case you scratch the surface
She'll never notice

[Chorus]
I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

Last night I knew what to say
But you weren't there to hear it
These lines: so well rehearsed
Tongue-tied and overloaded
You never noticed

[Chorus]

I'm not in love
This is not your song
I'm not gonna waste these words
About a girl

To be loved, to be loved
What more could you ask for?
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone wants to be loved
To be loved
What more could you ask for
To be loved, to be loved
Everyone...

I'm not in love
This is not my heart
I'm not gonna waste these words

[Chorus]

I'm not in love
(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)
This is not your song
(To be loved, to be loved, everyone wants)
I'm not gonna waste these words
(To be loved, to be loved, what more could you ask for?)
About a girl

source:songmeanings

"I think its about a boy who loves a girl; though he's trying to prove himself wrong.
oooorr.. the opposite. haha." - mits.

"so i think its about when you fall in love with a friend or a person close to you. they dont seem to notice or be into you so you get that felling of dread about making a move so you ignore it and deney it and hope it kind of goes away. " - flarixs

"This song's about a guy liking a girl. But he won't fall in LOVE with her because if he would, he'd be heartbroken in the end."- LubyLou7

"a guy loves this girl, a lot, but is afraid to tell her cuz they are good friends and is afraid of what the consequences of actually telling her would be, so to get over it he tries to convince himself hes not in love, she has no idea so she really has no part in this song...if you know what i mean"-dub2

"I think it's about a guy who is trying to convince himself that he doesn't love a girl, although really he does. The girl is unattainable, whether she is with someone else or is in love with someone else, either way the feelings aren't mutual. Therefore the guy is trying to stop feeling this way because he doesn't want to waste his time with a girl he can't have.
Or at least that's how I understood it as being. Being in that situation currently, it's nice to have a song that articulates this in my mind, without being depressing in any way." -sonofhacker

"i'm fair confident this song is about being in love but not wanting to admit it to yourself or anyone else for fear of getting hurt.. and knowing that the girl isn't all that interested in you, but still being quietly desperate for her and having no idea what to do about it."-keiwo

"I think he's in denial about liking a girl. Maybe he doesn't want to admit it to people (his friends?) but he wants her to know how he feels and at the same time he's denying he feels anything at all. idk if that's right but...yeah :) " - beckerz13

 As far as the chorus goes, he is denying his love for her because it's complicated. He knows but he doesn't know. Maybe it's new to him? I think it's the battle between 'in love' and 'not in love'.
Either way, good song. :B" -xAvondale

"I take it as just A Guy likes a girl, but hes pretending he doesnt because he doesnt want her to know. He cant get the courage to tell her, and he doesnt want to tell her because he's afraid."- cest-la-vie

 

"William said in an interview that this is a song about pretending not to be in love when you clearly are. As in, he's trying to deny his own heart because he can't be with this girl, for whatever reason, probably being too shy" - shapeofhome

"personally i just think its about a guy who is really really in love with a girl, but is just really afraid to admit it to himself. he's afraid she wont love him back, so he feels as though the only thing he can do to get rid of that fear is to convince himself that he actually doesn't love her..even though he really does." -x83

"There's a guy who loves this girl, and wants nothing more than to love someone that will love him back. But every time he feels like he's figured out what to say he loses confidence again, and in the end decides that he'd be wasting his time trying to win her, because he doesn't think she'll ever care about him the way he cares about her... so he tries to convince himself that he doesn't love her because he doesn't know what else to do. " - xLadYofSorrowZx

I've asked to a trustworthy person what to do about this, he said "I say you go and get her, Tiger!"

I realize that I have to struggle for what I've been dreaming of ever since I was a kid. I wanna see every corner of this world, even I wanna fly higher than ordinary people, to see the earth from above, to mingle with a billion of stars.

today is not even the beginning of April yet, but I've already spent lots of money on books.
but I'm glad to know it's well spent. I need those books for this semester projects.
Since I was high school when average boys spent their money to buy cigarette, I didn't. so I had enough money left to buy snacks after school, magz, books to read or dvd etc.

today in a bookstore, I was looking for a book. There was a kid approached his dad bringing a book, the kid said 'dad look at this!!' enthusiastically and his dad said 'wow what a nice story.. but mmmh poor him.. what do you think son?'.

yap it's cool to spend weekend in a bookstore with your wife and your kids, then watch a movie.